A New Year

It seems that once one year ends and another one begins, it is often a ritual of contemplation over the year that past, and a time for a new beginning as the new year begins. Of course for me it also means another year older right in the middle of January!

Last year was a wonderful year, it was a time of organization in my life, taking responsibility for my finances, and making long term decisions. 2009 will be the year to enjoy the hard work I put into 2008. It's time to buy a house!! woohoo!! it's time to have a baby!!! my mother in law likes to say that 2009 is the year of babies!!! and yes it seems to be that way. My sister (Melissa) and my sister in law (AJ's sister) are both pregnant with boys and both are due on May 17th!! chances are that neither one of them will deliver on their due date, but with the way things are going for them, you never know.

I am so excited about the possiblities life has layed out for my husband and I, and I can hardly wait to share the new memories with my best friend, my husband!!! Never thought being married would be so wonderful! Probably why I waited until I was 30 to get married! It's nice to have someone that you trust like no other person, a person I can vent to about work, or life, a great listener (or he's pretending to listen while he's watching tv). And when I am upset with him, I finally feel comfortable discussing why I am upset, and that has lessend as time has gone on. He has also help me feel comfortable speaking my mind, or giving me advice on how to handle difficult situations, or how to speak with a co-worker that I am having a difficult time with. My goal last year, and this year (it will always be a goal of mine) is to find other ways to deal with issues other than my natural Passive Aggressiveness. It sucks, but it makes life so much easier on me, and others around me.

I read the most wonderful book called "The Shack" by Wm Paul Young. The funny thing is, one day at work one of the nurses I work with was talking about this book, this was a couple weeks before christmas. I of course came home and told AJ I want to read this book, what I didn't know at that time was he had already bought it for me, and it was wrapped underneath the christams tree. Of course I'm telling him that I want to borrow it from my friends at work, and he's freaking out, that I will do that. Never happened, I devoured that book from page one, to the end!! Finally somebody put down on paper my thoughts!!! WOW!!! of course I loved this book, however I can see how it could be a controversial book, and that being said, makes it an even better book!! If anything the book taught me how important it is to be a better person. One thing that I started doing about 6 months ago, was if I'm in a store, and I notice someone could use some help, I'm there to help (usually elderly people). Anything to help someone feel better about themselves, or life, help make them smile!! I probably get more out of it then they do. Of course my grandmother and mom are a big reason why I am this way!!! The two of them are and were the most caring and giving individuals I have ever met, and if I can be half as caring and giving as they are, I will be happy. Which I have noticed that I have become a much happier person in life. And it's wonderful to feel happy, and be happy then it is to feeling depressed, or that you are not worth much.

well those are some of my thoughts, I love you all, and wish you a wonderful new year!!!!!!